I'm so bored I might shoot myself.  I'm finally going to quit the bakery.  I got a job at Starbucks.  I start my brainwashing classes tomorrow.  I can't wait for school to start.  For some reason I've been thinking about Dr. Ryan alot lately.  I really don't mean to either.  And every time I've thought of him...it's been a very sexual thought.   I miss Keegan.  I didn't get to go to his last gig and I haven't spoken to him since my birthday (Yes...I'm finally 20 years old).  It's scary to think that he won't be up at the college during the semester.  He might visit, but it still won't be the same.  I hope Dr. Ryan comes to visit.  I just want to run up to him and kiss him passionately.  See...there I go again!