I finally got up the nerve to tell Keegan my feelings even though he knew.  He was getting ready to go to bed when I decided to tell him, so he was like, "Now I'm awake."  I kept telling him I was sorry.  He told me he didn't want to mix friendships and relationships together.  I totally understand that too.  I told him that I didn't want my saying anything to ruin what we have.  And he was just like why should it.  He was so nice and understanding, and I'm glad he wasn't freaking out on the phone like I thought he was going to.  I had the feeling that he wasn't going to want to talk to me.  And I think that's what was holding me back from telling him.  But I finally had the guts to tell him and I hope our friendship is stronger then ever.  I hope like hell it does...