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I have to tell Keegan how much I like him. It's making me sick just keeping it in all the time. I just felt myself falling more in love with him at his gig at the Village Pub. I wanted to talk to him so I asked him if he wanted to come outside with me. He said yes, so we did. I wanted to tell him what I was feeling, but then his mother came out. She's really nice and she's got the thickest Scottish accent. It went all downhill from there. Then we were going to leave, so Keegan was like "Oh I'll walk you to the car." So we started walking, and Keegan goes, "Wow, your friends are really behind...oh, now they stopped." I was just like, oh well, and told him we could keep walking. We got to Carri's car and we stood there talking for a little while. I had put my head on his shoulder. I couldn't gather the nerve to tell him I had strong feelings for him. I mean...he knows I like him because Ryan the asshole told him. But I want to tell him for myself and I want to explain the reasons why I like him. But, I don't want it to ruin our friendship. He means so much to me. And I don't want to hurt him. I tried to call him last night, but his mother answered the phone, she didn't even get my name right. Maybe he'll have figured it out and will call me back tonight. I know he'll figure it out...he's smart like that. But I think that if he calls back, I'll be too nervous to tell him my true feelings.
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